寶貝熊與貓先生的生活大小事

it was difficult to describe what we had

with all that twisted mind games

and mixed emotions in between

at the beginning 

I didn't think I would fall for you

because I had my eyes and mind on someone else around you

but as time went by

and I started to realize

you were the one making me laugh

you were the one remembering what I said

you were the one who acutally cared

you were the one doing all the work

I started wanting to see you more often

I began chatting and hanging out with you rather than Mr. Eye Candy

I grew to crave for your presence and your attention

I missed you more than anyone else

remember that time

showing up at your doorstep unannounced

I still couldn't erase that surprising look on your face in my mind

when you saw me standing at the curb side

and the way you said no one has ever done this type of thing to you 

you had that big smile on your face 

that was the moment 

I realized that we clicked

that one kiss we shared that night

was light and sweet, pure and cute

I thought we were moving forward

but things just changed rapidly

the horrible mind games started

either I called and you didn't pick up or reply

so I gave up and not called you myself

and several months later

you would call back and ask me out

acting like nothing weird ever happened 

we would go out and have a great time

but you disappeared right after that for another couple of months

finally you said you planned to go away for couple of years

and asked would I wait for you

for once it didn't seem that romantic to me anymore

I didn't reply with something you wanted to hear

we hung up the phone with mixed feelings

with things on our mind

with no official closure

I still think about you from time to time

I still remember things that we did

conversations that we had

places that we had been to

I guess I was too much to handle

I put too much hope and pressure on you

I was way too anxious to start something with you

I was much different from what you thought or wanted in a girl

out of all things

I still don't know what I did wrong

where I failed you

and what turned you away from me